Do you ever have that overwhelming feeling that makes you just want to cry. Not because you are sad but because you are happy and overwhelmed all at the same time. Today was one of those days for me. I went to a local coffee shop and enjoyed a nice coffee and bagel sandwich. Viento y Agua is the bomb.com for all you Long Beachians. Plugged in my laptop, which has collected lots of dust due to my Ipad2 take over, and began my FIDM application essay. I'm so excited but at the same time scared. When I graduated Cal State Fullerton in May 2010 I was stoked and ready to conquer the world even though I had no idea where my career path was headed. Now that I somewhat have a college degree in Broadcast Journalism, the career no longer interests me. I guess I could potentially get a job anywhere doing anything since most people don't even end up following their intended degree. But when I was hospitalized at City of Hope I had a lot of time to think about life. I wanted a job that I would love and enjoy. I HATE office jobs. I LOVE clothes, shopping and interacting with people. Why not combine all my loves? So I decided that my next ultimate goal is to open and run my own clothing boutique. I know the odds are against me but I honestly don't care. I never want to look back on life and wonder what if.
So as I wrote about myself in the admissions essay I got teary eyed. Looking back on the last year and a half I have been through so much. I'm not always open with my feelings and its hard for me to share personal things about myself. Hence the reason why I started this blog. Although I have been lazy on updating it. I'm just glad that I have new goals and aspirations to conquer. The past few months have been tough. I quit working in May and got on disability. The summer was nice not having to stress about work and getting to hang out and do whatever I want. But when September rolled around and everyone around me started school and work and became busy, I felt lonely and under accomplished. I was unsure of what I wanted to do and kind of felt like a failure.
But where there's a will there's a way....I am doing everything in my ability and using all my resources to go to FIDM. I will be going for merchandise marketing and business management in April if all goes according to planned.
Watch out world, here I come.
